October 13, 2008, The Secret Cave

I dream I hike through the jungle with a group of people to a secret cave. We are wearing large hats to protect us from the rain as it pours down on us. Only I am able to open and enter the secret cave and find the treasure inside. Another man tries and fails to do so. We perform a ritual at the cave site in a circle around a fire. There is a woman on either side of me in the circle. I am leading the ritual. The ritual performs its magick, the cave opens and I enter and enjoy the beautiful shining treasure inside.

October 10, 2008, Stairway to Heaven

I dream I am in my childhood home. My mother is alive with me there in the kitchen. She died many years ago. I am happy to be with her again. She leaves the kitchen and heads up the back stairs toward the attic. I am sad that she is leaving me. I beg her to hug me before she goes back to heaven. She keeps walking up the stairs. As she walks up the final flight of stairs, I reach out and touch her. She turns around and I hug her. When the hug ends she steps back and looks at me. Her expression is kind of blank. She seems surprised that I hugged her. She then turns around and walks up the rest of the stairs into the light shining down from the attic.

September 8, 2008, The Master Gardener

I dream that my neighbor, a middle age balding man, is teaching me gardening and the language of plants. Where the plants are planted and growing communicates information, but never the same thing twice, always something new. My neighbor gives me illustrated greeting cards and picture books about gardening. My parents have died and my neighbor has befriended me. The plants and flowers grow wildly everywhere. There is a glass terrarium with a grow lamp. New flowers are sprouting up and dying out every few seconds in the terrarium.

July 26, 2008 (one day before my birthday), The Demon Master

I dream I am in a giant amphitheater, with bleachers or benches, on the side of a hill or incline. Standing with me is a big bald-headed man. He has many pins piercing his lips, like 20 pins. On each pin is a shiny gold metallic demon. The demon pins look like pterodactyls or bats. He is the Demon Master. He is invoking demons in a ritual. The demons appear on the stage below us. I feel very uncomfortable, very upset, very disturbed. I tell the Demon Master, "I don't belong here. I want to leave." And so, I leave. He does not stop me. I do not feel afraid of the demons but I feel there is something not right about summoning them. The amphitheater reminds me of Hell and the Demon Master reminds me of Satan. After I awake I wonder if the Demon Master is actually my ally, protecting me from my own demons, my dark side, that by summoning the demons I may actually examine them and learn from them.

July 25, 2008 (two days before my birthday), The Yule King

I dream I am with a man who is taken underground by nature spirits, into the realm of the dead. I go with him to give him support and to bring him back to the surface and back to life. Under the earth we are in limbo between life and death. We are standing between a wall and a precipice, like a cliff. The wall is textured like stucco. Beyond the edge of the precipice is endless space filled with golden glowing fog. It feels warm and loving - it is heaven - it is love energy.

We pass through the stucco wall into a small room. We are sitting on wooden chairs facing a wooden desk. Behind the desk is God. He is a kind and loving old man. He is Father Christmas, the Yule King, the Holly King. We make our case to God for why my friend should remain alive. God grants my friend permission to continue living in the material world. We return to the surface of the earth. After I awake I realize I am not afraid of death, and yet I also feel that I have a mission on earth to complete before my life is finished.

January 20, 2008, The Bird Headed Goddess

I dream I meet the Bird Headed Goddess woman with a multi-colored face. She is with her daughter, the Angel Gabriel. They both can change back and forth between a normal human body and their celestial form. I go in search of the Mother Goddess form and accidentally go to her celestial home at Rain Mountain. The blue-paper flames tell me I have arrived at Rain Mountain and ask me what I want to see the Goddess about. I leave Rain Mountain because I am afraid to face the Goddess in her celestial form.

After I wake up I decide I should re-enter the dream to ask the Bird Headed Goddess what my next career step should be. I enter into a trance state and return to Rain Mountain. I meet the Goddess with many colors on her face in her human form. She is smiling at me. I am happy.

September 24, 2007, Who is she?

I dream that I am surprised to be kissed on the lips, a big long passionate kiss, by a beautiful woman. Who is she?

July 15, 2007, What do You Want?

I dream that a woman asks me, "What do you want?" She is my spirit guide and goddess.

March 6, 2003, I Feel Safe with Her.

I dream that I am living in a house with many rooms. Many people are coming and going. A beautiful woman with wavy black or brown hair moves into a guest room. She is unpacking her suitcases. I say hi to her. I introduce myself and welcome her into the house. I feel magnetically attracted to her. I can't take my eyes off of her. I get a hard on. I feel embarrassed and try to leave but cannot. I feel safe with her. I feel her energy welcoming me. I wonder if my hard on is showing through my pants. I am so excited. So alive. We continue to talk. We continue to remain in each other's presence and energy. Even the silence between us is safe and secure and connected. We connect on all energetic levels. I am so sexually excited I am afraid I will ejaculate, but I do not. I remain in a state of high energetic arousal and consciousness. My mind and my heart are clear and warm and bright.

October 2, 2002, The Mountain Top

I voice this prayer before I go to sleep: "Oh Goddess, What is the ideal way for me to earn a living (at this time)?"
I dream there are nine women in bed together, all sitting side by side in a row. Each woman has a different career/occupation/profession. I choose the one who is the artist. I dream that there is a very long mountain range and I am in the valley. It is windy in the valley and I am telling the woman, my friend, the artist, that it is even windier at the top of the mountains. I want to climb to the top of the mountain range with her but I am afraid because it is so windy up there. I acknowledge that sometimes the wind does not blow at the mountain top, but usually it does and often strongly and sometimes dangerously strong. The mountain range is infinitely long.